Berlin, den 7. December
God morgon!
Every man loves a challenge, that's a given. Mysterious women kidnap our attention and spin us out of control, but there is always a limit that us men can handle. We love a woman who can have a bit of a wild side and isn't afraid to show it. For me, there's this swedish woman. She stormed into my life and threw everything out of control for me. She hit me blind sighted, didn't even see her coming. Everything went well between us the first few weeks. We talked, and talked, and talked. For hours without break. We talked about visiting one another and trying to see where things could go. She liked me and I liked her. It was clear. We both got jealous and irritated over things that shouldn't matter to someone who doesn't care. Then one day it all changed for her, she decided that she didn't want the distance. Keeping in mind that it's an hour and half flight that can be purchased for less than 50€. Which I can honestly understand because everyone loves being able to be able to have that physical contact they live for, but there are plenty of people who make it work with 5x the distance between them. So was this the true reasoning for her fleeing? We didn't speak for a few weeks, after a few drunk texts from her saying she missed me and me simply ignoring them then something happened. We started talking again. Right where we left off, as nothing ever occurred. This swedish woman is afraid. Simply afraid. Afraid of falling in love, afraid of being vulnerable, afraid of letting someone in. She has a history behind her and that's ok but she has to realized that the past is the past and tomorrow is in full control of her hands. She has to take control of her life and her needs and make them realistic and happen. She's a beautiful, young woman with the world as her oyster. She can have anything, anyone, and go anywhere she wants. That is the beauty of our youth. We live in a society where we feel safer looking outside from the comfort of our home. We need to break out from this and discover our own backyards and when we are done there then onto the neighbors yard. She needs to understand that running away won't save her from pain because it will only make her regret and wonder ,,what if's''. Why should someone sit there and wish that they did something when they very well could? That is my swedish woman for you. She locks herself up in her room called ,,life'' and doesn't wanna step outside. Don't be afraid of the pain. Pain is necessary to learn and grow. If something is meant to be it will be, someone cannot control what they want in life. As we have now seen, she has came back because she still has feelings for me. Those wont simply up and vanish, even if someone wants them too. Why deny the truth in order to lie. Wake up, grab life by the horns and show life who is on top. Love is a wonderful thing that comes with pain a lot of the time, but as it was once described to me: ''Love is like a red button that says cookie on it. We push this red button and every time a bird poops on you. Every 100x we push the button we receive a cookie, the best damn cookie of our life, but we are willing to push that button 99x and get pooped on for that one cookie. That my friend is love!'' It sounds childish but it is true. So where ever you are my mysterious swedish woman, I hope you realize this before you have too many regrets.
Mit freundlichen Grüßen,
Cory
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