Berlin, den 5. Januar,
It's time to finally let go. I can't hide it from my friends and family anymore. The past two months have been fake smiles and fake feelings. I have been telling the world that i'm doing great and that i'm finally haply again with my life, but the truth is i'm not. She is the reason i'm not ok. I never thought a human being could miss someone this much, but clearly it is possible. I've tried to keep my mind off of you by being active, going to clubs, seeing other people but it simply doesn't fit for me. I somehow end up always home, alone, missing you. I'm sorry to my friends and family who seem to be getting annoyed with my depressive posts but I cannot help it right now. Trust me, i've been doing my best to keep my mind off of things. The last two weeks have been filled with horrid dreams. I can't sleep a full night because i'm afraid you'll haunt me in my sleep. I'm a strong person and can handle pretty much anything, but in this case I have met my match. You break me down into the person no one knows. This person who has feelings and hope that maybe just maybe you'll be back. Now is time for me to finally let go, I am starting to realize that you're gone and won't be back. It's ok though as long as you're happy. Because at the end of the day, all that matters is your happiness. I'm always here if you need me. A shoulder to cry on. I wish you nothing but the best. It's not goodbye it's see you later, right?
Mit freundlichen Grüßen,
Cory
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