So the past month I have pretty much fallen off the face of the earth. Not because of something bad but because my other half was here. She came on the 29th of June with intents to leave with her sister on the 14th. Those two weeks were packed with highs and lows. Me taking care of her being sick and then me getting sick and her taking care of me, us watching the World Cup and the stress from watching Germany fight their way to the top, running around the city showing her everything I know and so much more. Her sister came for a few days and we went out most of the time. It was such a blast to have her and her sister here. Then came time for her sister to depart back home, but my other half decided to stay. I was so happy with joy but she was upset. It was/is the first time she has been away so long from family and friends and she cried, a lot. I understood her because I too made the leap into an unknown world where I didn't know many people and barely understood the language. Sure enough, she knew that and it helped her calm down to know I too have been through such obstacles. I had to work the next week but we spent every free minute together exploring, eating, whatever. Just enjoying each others company. Then came time to slowly say good bye and start searching for a flight for her return home. Turns out that the flights were 5x the normal price and it wasn't going to be possible for her to leave the third week. I couldn't have been any happier, who cares if that is wrong. I'm greedy of her and love her. I am not ashamed. We also realised that at the end of the fourth week we would have known each other for a year and we would have been together for four months. This was a reason to celebrate, since we always try to find a reason to be happy. Turns out she would be staying, staying until tomorrow evening. Up until this day I have been having the time of my life with her. We have fought, we have laughed, we have cried, we have made up and so much more. When I am with her, it feels like home. This is where my happy story ends, and the gloomy one begins. Today has been a day filled with emotions. I have never cried so much in my life. Call it what you want, but it's been tough for me. I am going to miss her beautiful smile when I wake up. I am going to miss the time she made Kladdkaka and it wasn't chewy enough and she was upset, I will miss the night she played mother while the guys gawked over her sister, I will miss when we jumped in the car and aimlessly drove the streets, I will miss the time we walked and talked for hours, I will miss sitting at the dinner table with her and just staring at her beauty, and I will miss so so much more. As you can see, there are too many memories that I will miss to even list. The worst part is knowing that I will come home to an empty house. I wont hear her brush her teeth, or lister to her tell me she loves me just before she closes her eyes, or even wake up to her smile and listen to her say ,,baby, wake up!''. I am going to miss so much of this. It was a beautiful thing to have her for a month but man does it make things that much more complicated. Anyone in a LDR will understand the longer they stay the better, but the longer the stay the more the goodbye hurts. I cannot wait until the day that I can wake up to her everyday because I look forward to that day so much. I would give anything to have that right now. Sometimes I feel like throwing in the towel but then I see her smile or hear her amazing voice and come to my senses. I do not want to say good bye tomorrow, this will be the hardest good bye for me and us yet but it is what it is. One thing is for sure. I am going to get off my computer now and hold her, hold her so tight and hopefully never let go. I hope you guys get to be with your loved ones all the time. It sucks having to say good bye. I know some of you understand.
Mit freundlichen Grüßen,
Cory
I hope you all enjoy the photos, because it was the hardest thing to find and pick these out.
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